checking of marks today. x) can't say that i was very disappointed, but one wonders whether to feel happy or sad. comparatively, i might have done quite okay (?), but falling short of your own expectations makes you feel like the world's greatest idiot. and i hate it when i don't do half as well in a subject that i really like as compared to something that i'm just okay with. it just isn't an accurate reflection of your passion for the subject, and seriously i wish i could perform more consistently for my humanities.

english was, let's say, a humongous let-down. perhaps it's true that the teachers are stricter in marking this year, and i daresay that the delineation between acceptable and unacceptable answers isn't exactly the most obvious of things, but i guess it isn't really right to give excuses to yourself? well, not that i haven't tried my best, but if there are certain things that are not up to standard, i'm not going to blame the teachers for imposing that standard on me. because honestly, i'll need to learn these things some day, and maybe i'll just have to learn it the hard way this time round. (like ahem, phrasing my points in a less convoluted manner. and improving on my summary content, which is pffffffft.) narrative's not going to be returned in this semester, which means my report card isn't going to look as nice as last year's, but well, let's just hope that things will look up after my narrative's returned, or at the end of the year. that said, i'm quite scared for my narrative - what exactly defines the genre of science fiction? at any rate i'd much rather be paranoid than be overly self-confident.

O.O my mum says the teacher might have took off too many marks for wrong words in my chinese compo. okay i'm going to check with the teacher tomorrow, but i don't fancy my chances with getting extra marks anyway, considering i've signed on the marksheet and stuff. silly me. :X geog = pure stupidity on my part, what with not reading the question closely enough and going on with incorrect assumptions.

enough on marks anyhow. i reckon it's not bad a present to myself, but at times i wish i'd tried harder, been less careless, and so on. then again, i guess i've done all i could, really.

on another note, i like writing credit slips! :D it's a good way of thanking people whom you otherwise wouldn't have gotten a chance to show your appreciation to, and it just brings back good memories reflecting on your interactions with those dear friends of yours. (: i shall not dwell on the fact that i don't exactly have a lot of credit slips. it might be a little sad to see people getting loads of credit slips and yourself getting considerably lesser, but well, that doesn't really matter. it's nice to get credit slips of course, but i don't live just for that green piece of paper. there's much more to life, i reckon, and sometimes you just can't get everything?

birthday tomorrow, wonder if anyone will remember, hmm. (maybe not, considering i almost forgot myself.) somehow as you get older these events don't make such a deep impact on you as they used to do; are we getting too concerned with fulfilling the demands of life to even enjoy the finer things bestowed upon us? it's scary to realize that you've missed out on the fact that your birthday is only, say, 10 days away all the while. i mean, it just doesn't feel right.

and tomorrow, we'll know if we've gotten through the auditions for the rbd performances. i love our script and our actors, though i know i'm rather guilty of not participating as actively as i would have wanted to. i hope we do get in, because everyone else has put in so, so much effort and it would be relatively depressing if all of that went to waste. but then again, these stuff bring and bond our class together, so results don't exactly matter at the end of the day.

dahil isayo is awfully nice! i don't know, but somehow the harmonies are just so beautiful. i shall blatantly ignore the (ahem, cheesy) lyrics though, even when the presence of lyrics is what makes song distinctly different from other musical forms. and that's probably why i find it easier now to connect with songs, or well, programmatic pieces than just pure music, even though it's said that music conveys millions of wordless messages. but i think concrete ideas work better with me. (grawr this makes me sound really dull, as if i can't make my own meaning about music or something. ohwell, nevermind.) and a musical extravaganza! (: the esplanade concert sounds awfully cool, but the fact that we'll have to confirm our repertoire by next week makes the imposing schedule seem twice as serious. anyway, tickets from sistic and a concert at esplanade is all that matters, and i don't mind slogging it out for that. :D

byebye jap show-and-tell, maybe i might keep the powerpoint for memories' sake. and i'm thankful it made up for my mediocre compo marks.

i've got too much to say, it seems, and i haven't learnt how to moderate. it's bad, but it's entertaining. maybe moderation is something i've got to learn? 14 tomorrow, we'll see how it goes then.

random things that made me happy today include the reinstating of packet milo in school - meaning a switch back to lower prices! - and hmm, blogger getting back to its normal old self, and not remaining in its conked out alter ego. and talking about alter egos and doppelgangers, i'm so glad for gothic literature. it's just tremendously fascinating, and haha, i love my rs groupmates! :D

[okay blah this post is horrendously incoherent. let's make it two things to learn by tomorrow, before i turn 14: moderation and coherence. but then again, maybe it's a bit impossibe to accomplish both in less than 12 hours.]

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lives, writes, sings, plays the piano, and attempts to sound intellectual at times (conclusion: fails rather miserably).

loves music (almost strictly classical, hurhur & inclusive of faziolis!), literature (& also the sciences - no they are not in conflict), making hopelessly lame puns, laughter, white/milk chocolate, cheesecake, the world & the people in it. list not exhaustive, by the way.

wants the world to be filled with peace, joy and love, and also wants (perhaps a little more selfishly) to be happy, plus lead a life of purpose. that would be more than enough. (:

oh, and she likes embarking on her own 'free hugs!' campaigns after exams and the like; not really sure why. D: (at any rate, you can tell that she's random enough.)

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very plain, she knows; but this is probably herself in its entirety - nothing more than a compilation of perhaps-boring-to-you little things (and the occasional Important Event), but also nothing less than all the brilliant memories which constitutes her life, and perhaps yours.

also interpreted as an inability to express with other things but words (nothing more, nothing less!), although even words sometimes won't do enough. but she does like orange.

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v4.0 (200908): got bored, so cut down on the quasi-fanciful stuff even more. perfectly plain now, though somehow the background still doesn't work on safari / google chrome. ):